today.....
woke up
play resident evil 4..
again...
play
play
and play
until eat lunch
life felt so meaningless for me...
she keep saying i like hazel...
say i dun like her...
why do this to me..
then nick sms
say they were at the kopitiam downstairs eating
i rushed down
only to find?
she lying on the table
nvr even bother to look at me
then i went away a while.....
came back she was talking and talking...
she saw me then went back lying on the table...
am i a bad omen to her or wad
she wont tell me why...
maybe she dunno why...
i always so disappointed by the way she treat me....
so different from the way i sms her...
maybe cos i also do that to her..
i hate myself...
so useless....