I know you'll never trust me, or anyone else like how you did in the past. I'll probably never make the same impact as him, but its ok. I understand. Went to the zoo with C yesterday, had a good time dragging her around to places with BUTTERFLIES and other creepy crawlies (but seriously, what's so scary about them I dunno). May seem quite evil, but I really just wanted her to get her mind off certain things, so as the saying goes, you wanna put out a fire, start a bigger fire next to it. Either way you're still gonna get burnt. Eh.

Went home to put my dear child into the dry cabinet and then headed out again to city hall (wow what a surprise). Singapore's really small so, come on. Where do you expect us to go? Ate some Thai food which was quite nice and salty (I like salty) and walked around shopping and headed home. Shopping isn't really very boring, but just very tiring after a while. Girls legs get a +10 Endurance when shopping mode is activated eh.

Hope you like the ugly, horribly made, long winded card I made. Its nothing much, really. I have no scrapbooking or drawing skills, so this is all I can manage for now. Sad.




3 tests coming up this week, plus IPPT. So that's 3x chances to win a luxury confinement for 1, and 2 week long RT I guess. Please let this week pass quickly.

Time to stock up on omnomnoms to bring into camp. I just remembered I had a blog LOL so yeah sorry for going AWOL so long (if anyone even reads this) and I'm here to clean up some dust. Alot of dust.

So life in the Air Force is kinda good, actually quite happy that I didn't get SISPEC since I failed FFI anyway. Which is my medical checkup btw. In case you didn't know. Its been 2 months with Delta already, and 3 more weeks to passing out. Seems like every week we have something to look forward to , like next week's dragonboating outing. Although I can't reveal much about what we do, I'll just say that LIGHTS OUT TIMING IS AT 830 HAHA.

Anyway these few months have been rather... well spent, I would say. Mostly on one person. You know who you are. What started out as a simple sms for a class gathering turned into something important in my life, which I didn't plan for. But I like the results nonetheless. It feels good knowing that I can make you happy, and cheer you up when you're down. That I made you back away from a wrong and grave choice in your life. Others may think I have some intentions towards you, and my answer is yes: I just want you happy. I'm not expecting anything from you in return, I just ask that you stay cheerful they way you are and that things will get better. Sometimes life drags you down, but I'll be there to pull you back up again. Its an important year for you, so don't lose your focus, strive hard for that future you want so much. All the best ok? You know who you are :) First post of 2011, and gonna be a short one at that, because I'm going to sleep, and also because I've nothing much to post about actually. Just been going out and slacking at home playing black ops. And injured my back for 3 weeks already. Gonna die in army if this continues. Oh, I'm going to sell Ba Kwa at IMM Giant this Friday until 2 Feb, so if you find yourself in need of fried, oil and fat laden pork and carbon, please stop by and buy from me, because I'll be in serious need of company.


10 Feb, and I'll be shipped away on a boat, to some god forsaken Island with some god-forsaken guy. I know this is a little late, but :



A LEVELS ARE OVER!! t(-.-t)



Spent the last 3 days at East Coast Park Chalet with the class to relax, although it was far from relaxing. 3 days without sleep, I don't need to spell out why I'm totally pooped now. The chalet was in horrible condition, the room was tiny, there was a severe power plug shortage, it was far from amenities, it was dirty, the toilet light was luminous blue. But it was fun, and that's all that matters. To briefly sum everything up:


Day 1 : Night time BBQ. Managed to cook 3 fingers to a crispy golden brown.
Day 2 : Breakfast, pool, followed by swimming and night cycling. 4 hours of cycling made my thighs harder than redwood trunks.
Day 3 A.K.A this morning : Went to the beach to watch sunrise with Esther and Yu xun, mostly due to the fact that the room was saturated and we 3 were precipitated out. Went home with Est after that. Slept for 6 hours when I only intended to lie down for 5 minutes.


Well, can't say much about what we did during chalet, because well, we didn't do much as you can see. First chalet I didn't sleep throughout, and everyone goes and sleep. So much for trying to please others.

But seriously, let's book a larger chalet next time. A levels are (almost) over! So, to practice for the post A level celebrations and life, I've been vigorously practicing how to live life like there's no school the past few days, and I kinda like it. So far.

Went to SITEX today, was really a disappointment, because, well, the deals suck. Sure the economy is booming and stuff, but with the prices there, I'm better off buying my goods at Sim Lim or Funan, or off some random shop in some random shopping centre. Sure there are free gifts and all, but who cares, really? Oh that's right, Singaporeans.

Looking forward to the so many things that I am going to do (and I hope I can do) after A's so I shall list them here: (Subject to change)

1)Finish FFXIII
2)Get Black Ops, Portal 2, SOTC&ICO
3)Learn Japanese
4)Go out and play
5)Get my 35mm and 150-500mm lenses
6)Gym (awww...)
7)Brush up on Photography, Bowling, Drummania, Pool, and see what I wanna do
8)Continue archery (Means buying my bow, *Hints*)
9)Volunteer at SPCA (Try to. Again)
10)Hmmm. Get a GF? HAHA

Seriously, I'm gonna have a lot more once I get my thinking straight, but these are the main ones that I wanted to do since, hmmm, last year?

Why not buy some of those for me? Accumulate good karma :) Knowing that tomorrow's the last official day of school, ever, suddenly hit me like a baseball bat to the nuts. The very prospect of leaving the comfort zone of the school compound and venturing into the unknown called society, certainly sends chills down my spine. But nevertheless, life must go on, and we must keep moving in the great circle of life if we want to ever achieve anything in life. So I guess it's time to move on? Not yet actually, not until I slayed the big A's...or until it slays me.

It was just yesterday that we walked into this complex upon the tiny hill of Lorong Chuan, a place I've never heard of in my whole life, and that was the start of two years in this place. In it I found joy, laughter, anger, sorrow, and poking. If there's one thing I've learned in JC, other than everything else in my BCME syllabus, its that I shouldn't judge people by first impressions. Most of the time. Sometimes I'm right though.

1st day with my class, the first person I met was Karl, and I thought, "Hmmm, this guy looks decent, no vulgarities and an innocent guy." I was wrong. I also thought Zhijian was some kinda punk-master, but I was wrong as well. I thought I could do well enough to take H3, but I was again denied the chance. JC really opened up my eyes to the hardships in this world, unlike the easy life in secondary school, and the easier life in Primary school, (PSLE, by the way, has become easier than pissing). For the first time in my life I fear so much for my future, unlike in the past where not doing well can still bring you to one of the 89127389172 secondary schools in Singapore, or at least a Polytechnic after A Levels. But now not doing well means you aren't going anywhere, the though of it is just too much to comprehend.

I want to thank 0903 for making these 2 years so memorable, and for helping me make it through the tough times. It was hard, but as a class we made it, even though we had a few __________ in between. They say time flies when you're having fun, and yes I agree that these two years have been fun, especially in J1 with all the crazy people whom a few of which have retained, but I still want to thank them. That means Joled, Jun An, Jorene, Shuyi, Dan Hui, Samantha, Wanshu, and Haifang. Once 0903, always 0903. Admittedly, J1 has been a very bad year for me, I still managed to pull through. Also, even though we don't see each other much due to the fragmented timetable, we still manage to bond as a class. Geoggers: Zuoyi, Esther, Yiakuan, Lance,Elaine,Liting,Michelle; H2-Econs:Andy, Linus, JunJie, Yuxun, Yanling; Siao-Gina Girls: Charis,Fangyin,Patricia; and finally my group with no name: Me, Karl, Kelvin, Joseph, Zhijian. And Elias, but he defected to 01. I'm not gonna write individual thank you notes because, I have to study, FYI. So I'm thanking you all here. Hopefully we won't drift apart in the years to come, because this is gonna be the last class you'll ever be in. University doesn't count because it's not classified under "Wear-some-ugly-uniform-and-go-for-assembly-every-morning" Kind of school. So yeah. Also, thank you to our teachers for being so patient with us, a class that never fails to fail. Miss Liang (Math/CT), Mr Teo (Math/CT), Mr Neo(Biology), Mr Goh(Biology), Mr Ong(Chemistry), Miss Tay(Economics) and Mr Gerald Chong (Yeeeaaahhh.)

Also want to thank the people in my CCA, as well as the teachers of NYJC Photographic Society, Miss Chua and Mr Cheng, and our teacher in J1, Mr Seng. Being Chief Photographer is not easy. I'm sure you all know because I was constantly complaining about the workload, but I did it anyway, because I love my job. Not that I love to cover events, but finally I joined a CCA which I really loved, not because my school has a lack of CCAs and I'm being coerced into joining something which I think is 'Ok'. Handling a CCA like this is very much unlike sports, and the fact that I've never touched a DSLR before joining didn't help also, but I made it through nonetheless. Thank you to the NYPSEXCO: Geraldine, Kaiyuan, Eileen, Jieqi; As well as the regulars who make my life in the CCA so much easier: Wanti, Qingran, Joshua, OliViA, Chan Hong, Elias, Candace, Cindy, Timothy. Also to my J1 juniors, you guys give me a reason to go back to Photog, so, J1EXCO: Charmaine, William, Damien, Jade, Athalie, Macrina, Yuebin and Lenis, as well as the other juniors : Natalie, Annie, Ron, Diep, Xinyi, and the rest. Also to everyone whom I've met before in school, random people, Japan Trippers, LTC Group mates, Seniors, etc.

From next year onwards, 0903 may cease to exist in black and white, but it will live on forever in us. Let us move forward and savour the fruits of our labour in the future, and plant the seeds of success so that we may all enjoy the good times to come.

It's been a honor to be in the same class as you all. Now let's go kick some A level butt. The past half a month's been rather hectic, but I shall persevere, because this is for my own good. Or is it?

Prelim results are more or less out, can't say I did too well but its a vast improvement since mid-years. Won't post my results yet until everything is finalized.

Oh, and good luck for your promos next week, if you happen to be J1 and reading this before promos. So yeah. Chemistry paper 3 was, wow. Best chem paper in my life. Not that it was easy, but at least no blanks in the paper. Not saying I'll get very good marks for it, not likely I will, but at least a decent pass. That's really something for a paper which I (and many others) have yet to pass since last year.


13 DAYS to the end of prelims.

79 DAYS to the end of A levels.

Sometimes, when life becomes nothing but waiting for the end to come, you've got some serious issues. So do the 12763 million others in school around the world. Sure, it's become a motivation to press on, and last to the very end, but at what cost? Let's weigh the pros and the cons, shall we? Just like a good GP student should.


Pros:
-Get good results, get into a good course
-After that, lead a life where YOU decide your choices
-Bragging rights to a piece of laminated paper
-Satisfaction from all the hard work


Cons:
-Effectively, 2 years of your life, gone. You know why many sports stars begin to shine at about 18-19 years of age? Exactly.
-Incurable trauma and brain damage
-Many diseases have been attributed to loss of sleep
-May induce short term memory loss
-May induce short term memory loss


So.... after weighing....




Bio beckons. Emotions. Why are we born with them? They always seem to be popping up at the wrong moment, at the wrong time, wrong instance. Gone were the days where everything was just do or die, now things must be carefully thought out, if not regret will ensue. I wonder, is it because we have more on our hands now, or is it because we have come to fear regret and failure so much?

I for one, am an embodiment of regret. I know now is not the right time to do this, but what I do seems to be just drifting past you like the wind. I fear doing too much for fear of exams this year, but I might lose you if I don't do anything. I'm really so lost now, but I just can't let it go so easily.

You'll see the signs. If you stop and take a closer look around you. I just have to get this off me, about the guy who introduced the Pomeranian to the floor in Sengkang and left a bloody mess of tissue and bones at the void deck. It seriously disgusts me as to how something like this can take place in the open and nobody went in to stop (yes, there were witnesses). You claim that you were afraid that the guy would retaliate and his you. What if the one being bashed was a human? A small girl or boy? Would you stand there and just watch for 10 minutes and thinking "Oh, someone will go over to help soon" or that "Maybe I should just call the police".

Singapore has a lack of animal right laws, many would be thinking, 'Oh come on it's just a dog'. But isn't it a life as well? If you were to think that such an inhumane form of torture and murder of an animal was "ok" in your opinion, then what makes you any different from a savage beast? Then why aren't you the one who is getting bashed out there, just because you were born with a intellectually capable mind and able body. What defines a humane action? Ghandi couldn't have put it better, "The greatness of a nation and its moral progress can be judged by the way its animals are treated."; Look at the way Singaporeans treat animals : Complaining about stray cats and dogs as they are like, health hazards or eyesores or potential nuisance; animal abuse such as this; abandoning pets that they do not want to be burdened by( yes, burden); the SPCA's gone to the dogs (pun intended) and the AVA's animal welfare department is smaller than my family. How I wish that we could be a nation of, if not animal lovers, people who at the very least respect the existence of life around us, and that all sentient forms of life are equal. The only reasons which I can justify for killing animals are

1)For food and survival.
2)For self defense, if the animal is attacking.
3)If the animal is suffering from some illness which cannot be cured and must be euthanized.

And all of which should be done swift and with as little suffering as possible. It's good to know that there is a size-able group of Singaporeans who are true animal lovers, but the vast majority of the population still has a long way to go.

Sorry for this post completely unrelated to me, but if you found it stupid that I had to say all that, chances are you are one of the vast majority that I talked about as well.


To the dog's murderer: Best go buy some painkillers, probably a lifetime supply, you'll need it when you burn in hell. Just came back here to clean up some virtual dust, won't be coming back so often because there's like, about 80 days left to the big As. On the bright side, Youth Olympics have kicked off yesterday, and Archery finals are next weekend. Some stupid bugger had to snatch the last few tickets away from me while I was sleeping. Now I'm off hunting for tickets. Time to grab my bow.